Archive for October, 2008
It’s been a tough few weeks. Life has a way of testing us the hardest when we feel we cannot take anymore.
I have come out the other side of what will be referred to as “hell weeks”, mostly unscathed. I am a little worn, a few new bumps and bruises, with some minor bleeding, but overall, I am “Just” me. Being able to maintain a level head, disconnecting myself from the emotions of the situations and just tackling things with an objective eye, made all the difference.
This weekend, I spent a lazy Sunday morning watching horror movies, drinking green tea and just enjoying the nothingness of it all. I took a leisurely walk along the marina, found a bench in a quiet rarely traveled area and reconvened with nature and myself. I released all my stress from the past weeks, all my worries, all my what ifs, all the shoulda, coulda, wouldas and reset to 0.
I realized that even though things aren’t exactly how I would like them to be, things are exactly how they are supposed to be. I am where I am needed for the moment. Accepting that and relinquishing control of the uncontrollable is refreshing. I can choose a good attitude, I can choose to accept or I can choose to get irritated and angry; the only thing that will change in the situation is my outlook regardless of which I choose.
I have passed my test.
How has your attitude effected the outcome of your situations? Have you passed or failed your tests?