Grey Sky Morning

So you sailed away, Into a grey sky morning
Now I’m here to stay, Love can be so boring
Nothing’s quite the same now…

~Vertical Horizon

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Left Behind

Deeper and deeper into the abyss I sink
Knowing every breathe I take may be my last
I search in the darkness
Reaching out
And realize
Once again
I am alone

The crows are singing
Their song of night
And I know
That it won’t be long
Before the last spark of light
Has been extinguished
And the darkness
Is allowed to take me

Is anybody out there
to hear my cries?

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Hardwood Floor

I stood there
Tears burning my cheeks
Your words cutting me
like dull razorblades
their harshness
ripping into my soul
tearing at my very essence

“hold it together”
- but it’s too late

With each falling word
the fissure grows
years of forgotten pain
flooding out

My heart
carelessly dropped and cast aside
in coldness

Tattered, torn, rejected

and you ASK me to find my confidence?

It is laying there…
enveloped in the flood of tears
and my bleeding heart
On your hardwood floor

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Until You Return

In the quiet solitude of my mind

I sit and ponder

what could have been

The memories of you

flood my senses

like so many tears

I reach for you

you are no where

though your presence surrounds me

I call for you

the empty echos of my cries

return to me

over and over again

taunting

a hollow reminder

that you are just out of reach

I build the walls

around my fragile heart

higher with each passing day

each fallen tear

I will wait
just inside

with my memories of you

Until you return

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Wings of Forgiveness

Somewhere in the midst of all the chaos that has surrounded my life these past few months I have found my center AND my forgiveness. Love and forgiveness start from within. Release the past, release the pain and tell yourself that it IS okay to feel hurt AND forgive. It is in that release and acceptance that you will find your wings…

I have

Please take the time to read the lyrics and listen to the entire song – it is absolutely amazing!

WINGS OF FORGIVNESS
~INDIA.ARIE~

I just want you to know
After everything that we’ve been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
That I still love you

Had to go
Across the water
Just to find
What was here in my heart all along
Spent so much time
Trying to be right
That I was dead wrong

If Nelson Mandela can forgive his oppressors
Surely I can forgive you for your passion

You’re only human
Let’s shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You’re only human
Let’s shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

Had to run
To the arms of curiosity
Just to find
What was here in my life all along
I have found that the art of simplicity
Simply means making peace with your complexity

If Gandhi can forgive persecution
Surely you can forgive me for being so petty

I’m only human
Let’s shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You’re only human
Let’s shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

I’ve searched for romance
Flowers and affection
What I found is a lesson
Of what love really is
Found the game of love is
Not about how much you can take
In fact authentic love is about
How much you can give

After everything that we’ve been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
I want you to know
That I forgive you
(thank you for teaching how to give)
And I wanna let you know how much you changed my life
I wanna let you know you taught me how to fly
And I wrote this song to tell you this
I’m better cuz you taught me how to give

I took a swim
In the sea of guilt and misery
To find myself on an island
In the middle of nowhere
In my solitude
I asked to know the highest truth
And what I was told
Is to thy own self be true

If Jesus can forgive crucifixion
Surely we can survive and find resolution

Let’s keep it moving
Let’s shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You’re only human
Let’s shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high, and fly high
Let’s keep it moving
Let’s shake free this gravity of commitment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

After everything that we’ve been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
I want you to know
That I still love you
And I wanna let you know how much you changed my life
I wanna let you know you taught me how to fly
And I wrote this song to tell you this
I’m better cuz you taught me how to give

I still love you
I want you to know
I still love you
Want you to know
I still love you
(And I always will love you)…

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Tell Me Lies, Tell Me Sweet Little Lies

you wrap your lies in pretty boxes
you tie them with a bow

Disguising yourself from yourself
but the truth is in the know

You hide behind the smoke and mirrors
wave the magic wand

A magician you are not
you’re time will soon be gone

Enough rope to hang yourself
A fool who’s unaware

Your demise is close at hand
a fate you’ll have to bear

Logic and reason have left your side
Chances are all used up

I’ve tried and tried to open your eyes but
you choose to keep them shut

I can no longer stand idly by
and watch this world unfold

Goodbye can be the hardest word
something’s are better left untold

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Where Dreams Await

Lay with me under the stars
Talk to me of dreams

Weave me a tapestry of your words
Like eloquence wafting softly on a breeze

Caress me with your intellect
Let me feel your mind with my soul

Paint me a picture of unadulterated beauty
Unmarred by the space between us

Drift away with me on the sea of love
Where time is of no consequence

Dream with me of stary nights and moon beams
Those things rarely seen or known

Come,
Let our souls dance on the shores of the Pacific
Where time stands still

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A Dream Unrequited

Hope shines bright on the horizon
…though it may be too late
Tattered and torn
I push along
Every revolution
possibly my last

A change is gonna come
but the need long forgotten

Status quo
rings through the air
as the night screams in solitude
the blind turn a deaf ear
and the deaf fail to see

What was once great
is now desolate
The dreams of many
now the reality of few

When will they realize?

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A Fool’s Charade

The lights are dimming
the crowd has gone
the curtain falls
on your one man show

No applause
no encore
just the silence of disdain
and the deafening clamor of distrust

The echoes of your voice
resound off the walls
the charade of your performance
now apparent to all

Fool hardy and unaware
you repeat your lines
to none
over and over until you believe

“If a tree falls in the forest, does it make a sound?”
Not upon deaf ears

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Reflections of a (not so) Lost Soul

She looks in the mirror
a reflection unkown

The lines of time
stare back at her
like a road map to her soul

Her image
a ghost of things remembered
A past not long forgotten

A glimmer
just behind the darkness

In the distance
the voices call
We are here
We are here

Arms reach out
voices assuage

If only she would recognize
that “she” is waiting
with those that love them both

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I wrote this for a VERY dear frien who was going through a hard time. I want to let her know how absolutely loved and adored she is by all that know her. Having her in my life has made me a better person. Sharing experiences with her has enriched my life. (Baby girl, you are NOT alone – the help is there – WE are here if only you ask. I will do everything within my power – move heaven and earth to ensure that both you and those beautiful babies are safe. Remember…have shovel -WILL travel. I LOVE YOU)

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